Fantasy

At first I wandered all alone

never belonging , never fitting in

singing a tune in my own tone

being different , is it such a sin ?

my heart empty , with emotion intense

many people around , no one to share

reaching out to unknown , with feelings immense

will i find someone , who will really care ?

a glance at your eyes

sparking , instantly spreading inside

melting me like fire on ice

does this mean a change in tide ?

sweet and a dash of spice
as i lean in , my arms around you tight
let the cooling mist rise
out on a full moon night

after years of wasteful glamour

coming to be with you

my very own knight in shining armour

do u feel it too ?

(an inspiration from reading too many vampire novels)

 we meet so many people in life . have you ever wondered why u like some and why u instantly abhor someone ? Is it their external appearence , dressing style , looks or just tat you dont "connect" with a person ? i'm sure that many of you like me have the habit of forming preconcieved notions of people . many a time i have firmly decided that i have hated a person . The other day , when i was telling all my woes to my mom she told me one thing "if u hate a person then it just means that you havent understood that person" . At first i thought this made no sense , but later i realised that wen you look carefully at anyone you wont have a reason to hate them .

Have u ever asked wat is it that , that people are trying to achieve in life ? all this running around , tensions , job searching , getting settled in life , try to find love , meeting upto ur friend's expectations , gossiping , etc

anything and any little thing in life tat we do are targetted towards the same thing !

Inner peace ..... !

this might seem such a cliche , but think of it .... even a serial killer only tries to fight his inner demons but failing so needs a release . as easy it sounds , it might be the most difficult to ever achieve if at all . i have always thought while walking alone "y am i here , as in y is it tat i can feel only myself and wat i want in life? am i same as any other person ? " are we all basically the same ? we all do wat we can to feel accepted but wat is it that we are really trying to do achieve ?

by now u must have thought tat either i'm getting a wee bit philosophical or tat i'm a complete nut !  .... sometimes i wonder that myself ... men fight for power but actually acknowledgement and on the other hand women try to nurture and care , thereby trying to earn a place in the society as a loving person .

now tat i have established it is peace wid oneself tat we are all searching for , how is it that we can achieve it  ?

i find a method very calming ... though its not a permanent solution (cos if it was , i would hv been in the himalayas ) try this ,

whenever u feel any rise in emotion try taking deep breath and think of whatever makes you calm . for me waves dancing across the sea does the deed . when i say emotion i mean any kind ... positive or negative ... for i belive tat everything in the universe is always in complete balance . a negative feeling will attract positive ones and vice versa . dont take me wrong though ... wen i say being calm leads to peace i dont mean that u should just abandon ur work and become lazy . but doing something for the sake of doing it is not advisable . we all have a purpose and a destiny , so fillfulling our duties is important but not so that we become mindless drones and monotonous . so with this small thought i leave you now :)

oblivion

Have u ever wondered wher all those lil things u lost hv gone to ?
this is specially dedicated to my things i hv "lost" till now :D

have u ever wondered
wher do ur lost things get surrendered
u swear u kept them somewher
but u dont find it anywher

oblivion oblivion
will it take an eon
oblivion oblivion
wher can i find it on ?

oh wher can they be
can u tell me
i seem to have lost it
so help me a little bit

oblivion oblivion
will it take an eon
oblivion oblivion
wher can i find it on ?

one more abt love :D

an odessey of the greatest human emotion :

waiting and waiting
searching and sighing
i try to hunt
it came to haunt

crying and laughing
hugging and kissing
love s not a bed of roses
has its thorns and doses

shouting and screaming
breaking and leaving
two pieces of a whole
now a void , a hole !

cleaning and clearing
loving and caring
cos i luv u and u luv me
and we are meant to be

a begining

hole and hatred
after everything done and said
and all those little hopes i hv shed
determined with a heart of lead

no more talking and listening
and no more phone fiddling
these lines will be the ending
of my heart's expressing

for a new path has opened
its a way to mend
to travel a new bend
cos this old way is a deadend

blank :D

words floating around
music blaring with a high sound
a book open on the lap
wearing a sweater and a cap

not seeing , staring vacantly
having no idea , putting it bluntly
then comes someone , shouting curtly
u go back to reading , sullenly

then again mind is a blank
the chair feels like a plank
and the cot begins to beckon
to finally sleep u reckon
:D

an online friend

an online chatty friend

 a long way it can wend

ur trust u can send

forever ur friendship he will fend

 

making u laugh

till u clutch ur stomach and cough

for the witty comments

and the precious online moments

luv or friendship :)

A fog in my mind
whom will i find
a person warm and kind
two hearts to bind

but as it clears
a friendship turns to foe, it sears
bringing eyes many tears
and widening my fears

then i start to muse
is it love or friendship i must choose
for its clear friendship i shouldnt lose
so its the other i should abuse

have i done the right thing
does it make my heart sing
oh i will know only when the clocks ring
and the chimes go ting-a-ling-a-ling
:)

"white"

with her i cannot get along
but i never knew i was so wrong
fo now v sing the same song
and v'll say friends for long
:)

A moony night

As smooth as silk
and white as milk

glistens the waves
hitting against the caves

acting as a mirror shiny
allowing the moon to explore its beauty

so as i step into the cool bluish white
my heart soars like a kite :)

todays science exhibition

stall after stall v dragged
as the sun had us dry and gagged
from our original plan v lagged
which had us tired and sagged

streams of light shining
the sun gives the clouds a lining

the dance of the dew on the grass
as gracefull as a luvly lass

beams frm the window fingering me
till i open my eyes to see

wat a beautiful dawn
lighting up my lawn

sketches

Junkyard s finally open n here s the first post ..... its one of my sketches .... hope u like it :)